What is it in humans that drives us to seek validation? Since I discovered blogs, and video blogs, I have noticed a very disturbing tendency in myself to become elated if a comment I made brings forth a response from the blogger, and conversely to become despondent when another comment goes ignored. I would even get a rosy glow if another commenter made a comment about my comment. Two prime examples were Amanda Congdon and Ze Frank. When I first began watching their blogs I commented fiercely, though rarely with anything new or insightful. Usually they amounted to me standing in a crowd, waving my arms and yelling 'Hey, over here! I agree with you!' Then, on one occasion, I recommended a story to Amanda during her Rocketboom days, and she used it, and even thanked me in the list of topics below the picture. You'd have thought I won a prize or something. But then the next day she used a story from another viewer and actually thanked that one verbally. I was crushed. Why didn't I get any real validation from this person whom I had never met? Fortunately, after years of metaphorical wake-up calls equivalent to a wrecking ball to the grundies, this little tap on the cheek was enough to make me realize how silly I was becoming about this whole thing. Now I still enjoy the video blogs, but my comments are limited to when I can bring something new to the table, and if no one notices it's no big deal.
So what, you might ask. I noticed yesterday that my post about the upcoming Firefly mmorpg generated more responses from you, my dear friends, than any I've done in a long time. And I noticed that I got that same warm fuzzy inside that I used to get from the strangers I had chosen to idolize. But the difference is that you guys matter to me in reality, and not just in some strange little narcissistic corner of my psyche. So I guess what I'm trying to say is thank you for coming by The Corner, and thanks even more for leaving your comments. It makes my day when you do, and in a way that I don't have to feel guilty or neurotic about.
Love all y'all,