Why can't doctors just say what's going on? I got to the hospital this morning and the nurses wouldn't tell me anything, kept asking my mom what she knows about her condition(sometimes everything, sometimes nothing) and finally the doctor came in. After he checked her vitals he and I stepped into the other room and he started explaining what had happened that day. I finally stopped him and told him that I had no idea what was going on, and that as far as I knew my mom had a stroke. Then the dance began. No stroke, or if there was it was not of any consequence in light of the lesions in her brain, and lungs, and liver, and the tumor in her lungs that they had just biopsied. Finally, after several minutes of him spewing jargon and refusing to tell me just what the fuck was really happening I explained to him that I needed to tell my brother in North Carolina what was going on. A few more minutes of tip-toeing later I had pieced enough of his spiel together and stopped him. "What you are saying is major systemic cancer, right?" He sighed and nodded. They were still assessing the data when I left, and will be discussing treatment options. I will most likely not blog much about this, unless it is good news, but those of you with a need, or desire to know what's going on may contact me privately for updates. I honestly can't even guess at the outcome, and right now I'm too tired to think about it.
Thank you all for your words of support and prayers. It means a lot. We have our first technical rehearsal for Reckless on Saturday, so I'm going to be working my ass off for the rest of the week, so I may not be blogging much. But fear not, I'll be back, and Starbase 66 will still launch...just maybe a little later than we had hoped.
Take care, my friends.
Marius
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If you need anything, anything at all, please, please, please, call me! Again, my prayers are with you and all the family.
Words have so much power, but are utterly useless here.
You have friends. If you need us, call.
I, too, shall send my prayers.
I don't even know what to say. I'm so sorry this is happening.
Well, Marius, what can I say but 'been there, done that'.
My kids don't have grandfathers, not one that's alive anyway. With my father-in-law that was because of cancer. It was like 'you have a sore throat'. After a few months it was 'not a sore throat, cancer everywhere'.
Your mother, your family and you are in my thoughts, how could you not be? I sincerely feel with you.
This is something you have to battle with what you've got and let go where you must. I'll have you in my meditations, let's see if I can get some good karma your way.
Marius...
Words fail, but ANYTHING you guys need, even just a safe place to vent privately.....in my clan, when we want those about whom we care to know we are keeping an active heart open for them,we say "candles lit and goats prepped for sacrifice.
lighting candles and prepping goats is,
Alysoun
Sorry to hear about your mom. I hope that she's comfortable.
I am sorry this is happening. My thoughts are with you.
I am so, so sorry to hear this. I will be holding you and your Mom in my heart.
Agrippina
Celebhith: I know, and it helps more than maybe you know.
Turtle: Thank you, and I will.
flurrious: Just keep being yourself on your blog. It keeps me smiling.
Erwin: I'll take all the good Karma I can get. Thanks.
Alysoun: Thanks for the lit candles, but just give the goat some extra hay and a pet on the head. ;-)
CLJ: Thanks, I think she is.
Monkey: It helps, it really does.
Agrippina: I'm sorry if this is your first visit here, but it does my heart good to hear from you. Thank you.
Ditto what clj said, & still holding you all in my heart.
My heart sinks.
Stay strong and know
love comes your way.
I am so sorry to hear this.
xo
Kath
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