Wednesday, September 06, 2006


–noun, plural -ties. 1. distress or uneasiness of mind caused by fear of danger or misfortune

It is also a powerful and irrational master. I try to sleep, but unfocused thoughts pour acid into my guts and turn my heart into a metronomic M-16 on full auto. The people from the 'good' high school called and think they can get me back. The college responded with a 'Let me get back to you.' Which option is the best for me, and the family? Am I even looking in the right direction? Is there some other field I could go into, yet not have to start at the bottom? Then again, what I have been making for the last 5 years or so is starting pay for most 'real' careers. The only other thing I've ever really wanted to do was marine biology, but that kinda requires a whole lot more schooling. I'm a lousy salesman, and retail is out of the question. So, what can a married forty-something with a kid do? My stress level, and thus my asshole-at-home quotient has skyrocketed since I started the new job, but we can't afford for me to be unemployed either. I'm feeling tired, and trapped, and more unsure of myself than ever. If only I could find a nice, cozy shop where I didn't have to be the boss, but could make a livable wage. And as long as I'm dreaming, I'd like a pony, too.

Thanks for listening to me bitch. You guys are the greatest.



Rosebuckle said...

For that last wish, have you considered Orlando?

Monkey said...

HAng in there. This, like everything will pass. If you stay in a high school this year- it is just for a few more months. A good friend once told me that anything can be endured for a few months. And she was right. Again, if you need lessons let me know.
Thinking good thoughts for you!

Anonymous said...

what about seaworld?? I'm sure they could use a person who has a theatre background and loves animals (the proper way, not in the Biblical sense). Imagine doing tech work for a bunch of doped you whales. How much different could this be from working with kids on Ritalin? This advice I am giving is super-cool. I am thinking about a career in career-counseling! Shine Jesus Shine! Doug

Anonymous said...

Nothing for me to add at all - the advice here is everything I'd have said anyway. Just remember, nothing last forever and you WILL get through this. I promise.